作词 : 黄雨篱
作曲 : 黄雨篱
编曲 : 黄雨篱
混音：黄雨篱
To mm,
致mm,
God I don’t even know your name.
天哪我甚至都不知道你真实的名字。
If you ever play this song,
如果你能听到这首歌
please know that this song is dedicated to you.
请一定知晓，这首歌是为你而作。
I don’t know how to find you now,
我不知道如何才能找到你了，
so my only hope is to let my song find you.
所以我最后的希望是能够让我的这首歌找到你。
And I tried to make it very obvious so you know it when you see it.
我尽量让这首歌明确直接这样当你看到的时候，你就知道我说的是你。
I’m sorry about all of this,
抱歉我不得不做这样子的事
I never meant to make you feel cringe or uncomfortable.
我绝不希望你因为它而感到尴尬或者不适，希望不会
But please, please let me know if you see this.
但是如果你看到这则消息，请一定让我知道好吗
Talk to me,
告诉我，让我知道
Write to me,
给我发条私信
Anything.
怎么样都行
You know where to find me.
你知道怎么样找到我的
Front roll seat you sat
那是我巡演的最后一场演出
at my last tour show
你就坐在第一排
I was blown
当我站在台上看到你的时候
by your stunning glow
我就已经被你摄人心魄的美摧毁了
Tears in your eyes
唱到那首歌时
my bad to let you cry
才发现你在哭
I evade your sight
我不敢和你对视
cause this is a crime
因为让这样美丽的眼睛充满泪光，我想我是有罪的
It was my last show of this tour,
在那场演出上，
and you were like…
你就一直
sitting right in front of me
离我那么近
and you were looking at me the whole time.
你一直都，认真地看着我
I was so touched by your sincere, and beautiful,
我真的被你真诚美丽地目光所打动
gosh you got beautiful eyes.
天哪你的眼睛真的好美
It kind of made me feel bad that my song made you cry.
这真的让我感到愧疚，因为我的音乐让你哭了
And after the show, when you walked up to me and said hi,
演出结束之后，当你向我走来和我聊天
my heart sped up, jesus, am I seventeen or what?
我的心跳真的加速了，天哪，就像我还是个17岁的孩子那样
I mean I haven’t had this feeling for a long time.
我真的，很久很久没有这样子类似的感受了
When I saw you go that was the most lethal struggle in my life.
当我看到你离开的时候，我想那是我人生中最致命的纠结
There were people talking to me but somehow I just, I just don’t want you to go.
朋友们在和我说话，但是没办法集中精力了，我只是，真的不希望你就那样走
So after 20 seconds, I said
所以经历了大概20秒的风暴之后，我对自己说
“f it, I’m gonna do this.”
“别想了！冲！”
So I ran, leaving all the conversation behind.
所以我真的把其他人都晾在那里，开始奔跑
I ran, like I’m that young again.
像那就久远的青春记忆里那样奔跑
By the time I got to that door,
当我跑到电梯门那里时
you were gone, and I thought,
你已经不在了，我就想啊
after I go outside Ima run fast as if my life depends on it,
等会等我下了电梯，我得玩命跑啊
I’m gonna run this whole block (Excuse my language) if I have to.
如果有必要就算把整个街区跑个遍我也要追上你
That’s when the ele opened, you came back,
但这时电梯打开，你居然折返回来
and I saw you eye to eye.
我终于能够和你正面对视
I took your card in your hand and wrote you note saying
我拿过你手中的明信片然后写下这样一段话
“I think you are beautiful and glad you come to my show.”
“我觉得你很漂亮，很开心你来我的现场。”
Trust me that’s one of the kind,
相信我这样子的明信片是独一无二的
I never wrote something like this to my audience before.
我从来没有对任何来看我的观众写过类似的东西
So If you have it, you know it’s you, it’s gotta be you.
所以如果你现在手里有这样一张，请不要怀疑，我想要找的人就是你
I did wanna ask your number or write my number on at least,
我的确是想要问你联系方式，或者把我号码写上去的
but I guess, I just don’t wanna freak you out,
但是我想，我确实不想吓到你
I mean, I get it, I’m just a songwriting guy who happens to be in your city
我明白的，我只是一个写歌的人，一个你的城市的过客
for just one night,
第二天就会离开
and you don’t know me,
你也并不认识我
you listen to my music of course,
你当然是听我的音乐的
but that’s not me, that’s just, projections of me.
但是那并不是我，那只是，我灵魂的一部分投射
And you got your life, hopefully it’s a happy one.
然后你肯定有你自己的生活啊，希望是幸福的哦
Even a boyfriend maybe,
也许有很爱你的男朋友
Girlfriend? That’s cool too.
女朋友吗？那也很好啊
And I don’t wanna ruin your night and complicate things up,
然后我实在不想破坏你来看我演出的体验，让事情变得棘手
So I watched you go,
所以我还是看着你走了
But I’m afraid, that’s gonna be my biggest regret soon.
但是我现在害怕，那将成为我最大的遗憾
Oh will I ever be
从今往后
seeing you again
我还能见到你吗
All I really need
我其实只是希望
is to become your friend
能够成为你的朋友
or perhaps maybe be your man
当然要是能成为你的男孩会更好
I am not thinking straight
对不起我现在脑子很迷糊
the situation
这个情况
is worse than I think
比我想得还要糟糕
once in a life time cringe
也许对你来说那是灾难级的尴尬
I'm sorry that I put you in
真的很抱歉我把你扯进这样的事里
Oh you
呜呜
what if I won't ever get to see your face
如果我真的没办法再见到你的面孔
Oh it's not cool
这真的太糟糕了
when you looked at me why did I shy away
当你看着我的时候为什么我要逃避你的目光
It's so unfortunate
真是不幸
seems like it's gonna be my worst mistake
这看上去要成为我最糟糕的错误了
Oh it's true
相信我这一切都是真的
trust me I ain't never did something like this
我从来没有做过类似的事情的
Let my song find you
写一首歌，让它去找到你
I don't care what other people say
我也不在乎别人会怎么说
Just give me one more chance
我只是希望能够给我一次机会
to ask you out on a date
一次邀请你约会的机会
I’m so blessed to meet you, I truly am.
遇见你是我所蒙受的赐福
But why this song is so sad?
但为什么这首歌却如此悲伤
Well, I guess because when that thrilling, ecstasy turned to sadness
我想这是因为当我开始接受“我不能再见到你了”
as I slowly realize to the fact that
这样一个越来越可能的事实的时候
it’s getting more and more likely
初见的悸动与狂喜逐渐沦为失落
that I’m not gonna see you again…
而赐福
Blessing becomes torture.
也成为了折磨
I’m not gonna see you again, am I?
我不会再见到你了，对吗
I’m not gonna see you again.
我不会再见到你了 ：（